sagikkun: (lviii.)
ᴋᴀɴɢ ʏᴏ-ʜᴀɴ ( ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴠɪʟ ᴊᴜᴅɢᴇ. ) ([personal profile] sagikkun) wrote2025-02-20 04:40 pm
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[personal profile] gahrot 2025-05-18 04:41 am (UTC)(link)
Yah-- ( but it's quiet, soft, protest for the sake of protest as his attention dials in. he's getting what he wants. he's getting so much he's already overwhelmed by it, yohan's hands in concert, sparking too much in him at once. diabolical. cruel.

it's nothing less than he expected and yet it's so much more than he could have guessed. right and wrong in the same breath. suffering for it, now. thriving.

his leg lists, forgotten, grip loose under his knee as yohan slides his fingers back in and gaon's whole body rolls up with it. it's a terrible, wondrous fucking thing, a burn of an ache that nearly chokes him, sets sweat beading under his arms, at the base of his spine. he's seen yohan's hands do so much and this feels like a whole new threat, opening up to him, letting him see the effect of it. but it's impossible not to and he tips his head to the side as his hips rut down to meet yohan's fingers again, chin into his shoulder as he breathes.

he forgets to answer, distracted, hand splayed flat against his stomach where it trembles with the strain of trying to stay relaxed. )
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[personal profile] gahrot 2025-05-20 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
( it's not really a moment of pause but gaon takes it that way all the same, a restless hand sweeping down to squeeze the head of his own cock where yohan's given him up. just once. just enough to edge a little hiccup of a breath out of him, surfacing up out of the shallows of his own mind to blink at yohan, bleary-eyed and red-cheeked. unsure for a second, but then his chin dips in a nod because what else can he say?

yohan looms over him like he might consume him, awash in dim golden light, something wholly born of fire and sent to flay him open, to find his softest parts. gaon swallows hard at the look on yohan's face, the light in his eyes, and his hips shift again as he lifts his leg and lets it drop over yohan's shoulder with a heaving breath, sweaty skin sticking where they touch. )


Another one. ( badly croaked, a match to yohan's voice in a way he likes too much as he hitches his hips down, tries to take yohan's fingers deeper inside him. ) More.
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[personal profile] gahrot 2025-05-21 06:48 am (UTC)(link)
( he doesn't recognize the sound it pushes out of him, a garbled heave of a breath that forces all the air from his lungs. it's so much, too much, a panicked, scrambling sensation only just tempered by yohan himself. the breadth of him, the smell, the heat radiating off his skin. he trusts that yohan wouldn't push him too far, that this flaring ache is what they want out of this and it's fine. gaon twists against the bed, head thrown back into the pillow, mouth fallen open as yohan presses deeper.

a hand fits between their bodies, fingers suddenly digging hard into yohan's wrist. he doesn't think it's to stop him, but he's not thinking very clearly at the moment. it's not bad, it's just overwhelming in a way he didn't understand it might be and he groans long and low, his thighs twitching, trying to relax, to breathe.

his eyes crack open just enough to see yohan, blurred through wet lashes, so close now, this tangle of their bodies creating this little space between them. he starts to say something, he doesn't know what, but yohan's fingers press just deep enough, at the right angle, and a jerking, full body shiver tears through him with a cry he doesn't have time to swallow, followed by a litany of low cursing. )


Kang Yohan.

( plaintive. reprimanding. the whine in his voice is all breath gone staccato as he pants, twisting a hand into the pillowcase beside his head until it's taut. none of it means stop. )
gahrot: (cxci.)

[personal profile] gahrot 2025-05-22 06:48 am (UTC)(link)
( it takes him a moment to claw his way back. he's lost in the rush of heat, a cascade effect from the center out that washes through him in waves from where yohan's fingers press deep. it's a dangerous thing for kang yohan, of all people, to have found. he's just been granted a weapon and gaon's too far gone already to properly defend himself against it. he forces his eyes open, dazed a half-second before he gathers himself enough to find yohan's face through the haze. )

What--?

( but it's soft, a breath of a sound as gaon blinks up at him slowly. yohan's so close like this, right here. gaon's hand moves from yohan's wrist to push his fingers up through yohan's hair, lifting it off his face, only half-aware he's doing it because it's hard to focus beyond the stretch, the arousal hot in his cheeks, the strain in his thigh. he can feel sweat at his temples as his body moves of its own accord, desperately seeking more of yohan's fingers, chasing whatever it can get from him. )
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[personal profile] gahrot 2025-05-23 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
( he chokes on the breath he's trying to take, jerking away from yohan's fingers so violently his whole body twists against the bed. a hand scrambles to find yohan's arm, fingers digging in just above the elbow hard enough he might bruise and he holds himself there, body angled, thighs tensed, hips rolling that spot against yohan's fingers again and again, almost mindlessly chasing the sensation of it. he's not as aggressive about as yohan is, quick little cants that ripple through him and build in intensity. )

I haven't...

( done this before? trailing off, barely there, too preoccupied. there's too many words to take in. vaguely he's aware that there might be something bordering an insult somewhere between them, but he can't hold onto any of them long enough to piece it together. there's too much going on, too many chemicals dumping into his body one after another tonight, and he's never felt his body work like this before, never explored the intricacies of any of this. he'll have time to reflect on it later, now he's dragging a restless hand down his face, overwhelmed, cock leaking precome against his belly, yohan's fingers. )

Slow down-- ( gasping, digging a heel into yohan's back, not actually a protest but a warning muffled behind his palm. he doesn't want to admit to it, doesn't want to give yohan the satisfaction so quickly, but if he keeps this up gaon isn't going to last much longer. )
gahrot: (ccxcii.)

[personal profile] gahrot 2025-05-24 04:15 am (UTC)(link)
( he could. he might, if he keeps trying. gaon groans to himself, stumbling towards something that might be embarrassment if he thought yohan might actually ridicule him for it. his cheeks are hotter suddenly regardless. he's aware of too much. he drags his wrist against his eye like he might hide behind it even as yohan's leaning over him and he still manages to thrill under the kiss, the attention, pleased. on edge. too many things at the same time.

it's easier like this. less overwhelming. gaon can sink back into the pillow and breathe again as the urgency ebbs, though the intent still licks up his spine, roars in the background. he watches yohan with half-lidded eyes, hand dragging down his chest as he forcibly slows his hips into something more intentional, purposeful. he breathes deep, slow, lung-filling breaths and it's a noticeable shift when he finds a rhythm, a match, angling down just-so to meet yohan's fingers as he sinks them in. and that's shattering in its own way, the first time they really align, the way the ache gives way to something jarring in a new way, bone-rattling, life-altering.

he half-laughs his way through a moan on the next thrust and his attention shifts from the orchestration of it to how to repeat it, how to match yohan's thrust. his thighs tense, the lower one drawing yohan closer, the higher one using him as leverage as he tries to find the right balance of what he wants and what his body is gradually allowing. )


You relax. ( it's still hard to get words out but he's not as muddled now. ready to pick a fight. ) This is easier for you.
gahrot: (cclxxviii.)

[personal profile] gahrot 2025-05-28 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
( maybe he doesn't understand. it's not as though this thing between them has ever felt one-sided, or that gaon believes that yohan has been knowingly leading him down a path to this inevitable conclusion, but there is a power dynamic here. and maybe it's yohan and the way he keeps all his cards so close to his chest, plays moves ahead at every opportunity--how could this be exempt? it catches him off guard, a little hitch of breath at the realization that yohan isn't as in control here as he is everywhere else. that this is an undoing, yohan shaken loose of pretense.

it's an intimacy he's ironically not prepared for, given where yohan's fingers are.

he pushes his fingers up to curl into yohan's hair again, tight at the back of his head. it's almost a caress on the way there, something tender in it as he swallows past the wealth of feelings building in his chest and lets yohan work him open. )


Aii. ( slow, groaning, a double-hike of his hips at the touch, a stutter of sensitivity. he clenches hard around yohan's fingers as he goes to draw them out again, slowing the next push back in. ) Who's jagiya? Me? Aish. ( warmth blooming, heat in his cheeks regardless. they're on the precipice of something here and he wants it badly enough he can taste it, hunger in the back of his throat strong enough it thickens his words to a demand. ) I want you.
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[personal profile] gahrot 2025-05-30 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
( it's a reprieve he's glad for even if he doesn't want it. there's room to breathe suddenly, less pressure inside and out. he doesn't think he's felt quite this specific flavour of want before, this space between, watching yohan with lidded eyes, anticipating what's to come. he's not still even like this, hips shifting as yohan moves, seeking out pleasure lost in a way that makes it worse somehow. he didn't know he needed it before, now he's adrift without it.

he's only half-aware of what's going on. his hand slides down to wrap his fingers around himself, stroking slowly, loose-gripped, tongue wetting his lips as he watches the light play across yohan's skin, the way his body stretches, the shine of sweat. there's something artistic about it in a way he can't name, a painting come to life, the way yohan keeps looking at him like he can't help it, like he can't stop. that's what he's wanted, isn't it? to be the center of yohan's focus. to have that carefully honed attention on him?

he makes a noise to himself at the understanding and he shifts, head tipping to see what yohan's looking for just for the distraction, to redirect his own mind. there's something snapping at his heels, a mild hysteria at the build up, something tight in his throat and he steals the condoms out from under yohan's hand. he doesn't know what he's doing. he's too deep in this now. the want is buried so deep inside him that there's no other option, no other way this could go, and he meets yohan's eye for a split second, a dare, before he tosses the condoms off the other side of the bed. )


I want you. ( lower, intent, pointed. rough with something purposeful as he hooks his fingers behind yohan's jaw to drag him down into a kiss. ) Kang Yohan.
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[personal profile] gahrot 2025-06-05 05:47 am (UTC)(link)
( the anxiety rises. it's a good kind of anxiety, anticipatory, alert all the way to his fingers and toes as yohan pulls him into place. it's the promise of it, all the build-up that's brought them to this point, the raging heat that follows his gaze from yohan's hands up the line of his body to his face, to where they've knocked his hair loose, to the surety in all of it. the intent. he hitches his thigh higher against yohan's hip, too aware of the way their skin sticks, the slick of lube on his hip now from yohan's hand, the way the mattress shifts under him when yohan gets close. it's like a timer counting down in his head, the pair of them hurtling towards something inevitable, the shuddering beast lifting its head--

and then.

the first press is immediately too much. for all the credit he'd given yohan's fingers, this is a different sensation entirely. his breath stutters out of him as yohan eases his way inside and his body arches in a single, fluid motion, instinctive, like it's trying to escape. like there's anywhere to go. it demands all of his focus, every part of him honed in on the inexorable stretch to accommodate, and then the head of yohan's cock sinks past the rim of muscle and a sob punches its way out of gaon as he clenches tight around him. his thighs tremble with the effort of holding still, of trying to convince himself to relax, one hand raking up through his own hair while he digs his fingernails into yohan's shoulder with the other, sucking a shivering breath through his teeth. )


I'm trying-- ( to breathe, to relax, harried and preemptive before yohan can try to tell him off for it. it's a moot point, it's noise for the sake of it, happening outside of himself without his full awareness. )
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[personal profile] gahrot 2025-06-08 05:21 am (UTC)(link)
( he'd be enthralled if he had any room left in his mind to be aware of the way yohan looks right now. he gets it in flashes, quick bursts of light through his lashes as he fights to breathe. dark eyes. golden skin. the look on his face, as if he's been wounded, and gaon doesn't have time to know what to make of that before yohan inches deeper inside him.

it goes on for so long that gaon loses track of anything else. there's only this, only yohan and the sensation of being filled, of space being made where there wasn't before, yohan carving out room for himself inside of him. it's a struggle to breathe, to be still. he thrashes a little, desperate jerks to get away as he groans, just the slightest tinge of misery at the edges and he wouldn't be able to explain the way that it's terrible in exactly the way he wants it to be. it's so much, all the pent up parts of him pressing outward, straining at the seams, his thighs shaking, his chest heaving, panting into yohan's mouth where he's only half-aware that they're kissing to begin with.

he feels when yohan's hips settle against his ass. he makes a desperate, aching noise against yohan's lips, his whole body shuddering, trembling as he fights to talk his muscles down. he can feel himself tight around yohan's cock, the stretch of it, the fullness, and he pushes a hand into yohan's hair to drag him into place, to press their foreheads together as he hooks one ankle over the other behind yohan's back. )


Just go-- ( strained, shaking. he rubs his nose into yohan's sweaty cheek and breathes hard in the little space between them. ) Move. Yohan-ah, fuck, when you want.
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[personal profile] gahrot 2025-06-14 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
( it's a kind of ache he hasn't felt before, something deep and real in a way so many things aren't. it's too much, overwhelming to the point he can't think of anything beyond yohan's cock and the weight of his body and the heat of his skin. there's the smell of smoke in the back of his throat, of decisions made and sides taken and the way everything kind of feels like it's been on an inevitable spiral to this point, sliding from the moment he'd walked into kang yohan's office and shaken his hand. it's not the sex as much as it's the consuming, as much as it's the way his entire life has been upended and somehow even this doesn't feel like it's quite enough.

he chokes on the sensation of yohan pulling out, but the slide back in is revelatory. he feels it in his spine, electric, sparking somewhere in the space between pleasure and hurt. his breath hiccups and he scrambles a bit to find a grip, to twist his fingers deeper into yohan's hair, to dig into the meat of his arm, cursing low, staccato. )


Aish--

( chest heaving, he arches off the bed, thighs tense against yohan's hips. there's a stutter of sound as yohan presses deep again and something shifts, his body relaxes a little more around him. )

Okay. ( permission as he wraps an arm around the back of yohan's neck. ) Okay.
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[personal profile] gahrot 2025-06-19 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
( it feels a bit like this is what he's been chasing for so long. or something close to it, anyway, this sensation of being consumed on all sides by kang yohan's attention. because it's all there is now: the weight of him, the smell, every little breath and gasp against his skin. he's surrounded by him, filled up by him, and yohan is right. gaon barely has a grasp on what's happening but yohan is right all the same because he does like this. too much, maybe, even down to the ache. he likes it in a way that might become a problem later, another high to chase that he should be sworn away from.

he presses the wrecked noise he makes at that thrust into yohan's hair. he can feel how the tension gives way, how his body works to accommodate because the want is such a hungry, visceral thing. another snap of yohan's hips and his head drops back to the bed, mouth open at the sensation. it's all of it, everything, even down to the feel of yohan's body moving between his thighs. there are a hundred problems with this, even more reasons why they shouldn't be doing it, and instead of examining those with any kind of seriousness gaon hitches his hips up to meet yohan's next thrust with a filthy groan.

was this what they'd had in mind when they'd planted him to keep kang yohan in check? probably not. but they never really keep what gaon wants in mind, either, and this right here? he wants this. )

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